Trying to get courage
From: toni welsh (twelsh1@hotmail.com)
Wed May 24 08:45:03 2000
I have had alot of abdomenal bloating the lsat few days, and last night
I could not even button my jeans or sit.
I have never had this before, I was taking senekot every night, and
stopped doing this, I had alot of pain last week, and now I know that
the abdomen is getting bigger, and I am so tired of running to the drs.
I am treating this all myself, and I told my husband the fear of surgery
is so great, and trying to stop smokoing so I can do it. I have been in
alot of pain lately, and the bowels not moving is REALLY getting to me.
I am under alot of other stress, and this is getting to me.
My husband even said he has never seen my stomach like it was last
night, the bowels did move some today, and it is painful, this I know
has to be from the intestines being stuck to the abdomenal wall, and I
just cannot get the nerve to call the gyn to set up the suregry with the
general surgeon. Do I keep suffering until this terrible fear of dying
goes away, I do not know why I am feeling this way! I am even thinking
of igving up pain clinic, the meds are not helping, and they change
nothing.
frustrated,
Toni