Re: Im a mess

From: Sue Ann Murray (
Tue Apr 11 19:03:00 2000

I want to add my sympathy for your loss. And as someone else said, you do still have a lot of time to grieve. Don't be afraid to reach out and let others help.

Sue Ann

> I haven't been around in about 2 months. My dad got sick and died about
> 3 weeks ago. Now I have no parents. I am sure I am not alone. So that
> has thrown me wako !!! Of course increased pain with he extra stress.I
> have done every alternative treatment I can think of and so far no
> relief. I was going to a great P.T. but even she said she could do no
> more for me that it was the adhesions. She did teach me how to lesson
> my pain by relaxing my pelvic muscle. But that is just temporary. It
> helps with the constipation and not being able to empty my bladder
> completly. Even my new alternative care person thinks I should have an
> operation then she thinks she can help to prevent further ones. I also
> have endo.I am at the end of my rope have had unhealthy thoughts. I'm
> sure I am not alone there either. I had such great hopes for this last
> treatment. So what to do ? I see there is quite a few of the gals going
> under the knife. Maybe we are having our spring cleaning ! I live in
> Seattle area and a Dr. Barbara Levy is in Federal Way not far from here
> and she is in the same surgical group as Dr Reich. And isn't Reich
> suppose to be the best laporscopic surgeon in the world? If that is true
> and we have angel flights maybe I should just go to him. Or is she just
> as good. Maybe Helen can help me out with this one please. I liked
> Levy enough , have only seen her 2 times I think, She is hung up on
> sexual abuse and asumes I have been abused. I see her May 1st. Before
> this one I am going to become a believe that ist will work and eat good
> and all that so I have a better chance of healing faster I hope.
> Yesterday I was going to the physc ward but I was afraid they would take
> my pain meds away and let me hurt. I have wanted to just run away
> because My husband would be better off withot me. All I do is cry or
> sleep or be mean. Of course he assures me he couldn't live without me.I
> wish I could go away by myself for a week or something, but I can't
> because then with so much grief and pain and saddness I could get all
> confussed and do something I would never do with a sound mind and body.
> I did get away kinda. I took a zanax and slept for 21 hours. I could
> hardly get out of bed my joints and muscles were very stiff. But what a
> nice escape. Alot of bull going on over my parents possessions. I just
> can't handle it. I need someone to do it for me and told them to just
> write me a check when the money comes. I have my dads pocket knife let
> them fight over the rest I guess, because I can't handle it. They
> forget my life is full of pain and stress. They forget I am even sick.
> Sorry to get of our subject. But Here's to our SPRING CLEANING !!!!

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