I see in your post that there has been some bad thoughts going through your head. I have had them too. Think of this though sweetie, probably in the next few months, the spraygel will be ready all over the place. My hubby wanted to do the same thing. I told him that I have already suffered for 7 years, I will try and wait just a little longer. I hope that you can too. I know this disease we have is awful, but you always have to remember that you are here on this earth for a reason. We need you here on the board too, so don't give up.
a new friend
-- Linda Garcia