Dawn,
My heart aches for you. I wish I could be there to give you a great big hug....I don't worry about it being gentle because when it is filled with love there is no pain. But, since I can't be there please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. Close your eyes, visualize that warm, snuggly, comforting feeling and know that not only am I hugging you but God is too. I don't know how strong your religious convictions are and I don't mean to impose them on you or anyone else, but one thing that I do that really helps me get through all the tough times is to close my eyes and visualize myself sitting on the Lord's lap and feeling his love envelope me. I feel so safe and secure and so loved that I know that I can make it through anything. I hope this helps.
God Bless!
Love,
Karla
Cheechiebomb@aol.com wrote: Hi everyone
I have not been writing much my mother became very ill and still is really.
She lives with an elderly lady with Alzheimers?sp and mama herself is a
cancer survivor she had her right breast removed about 8yrs ago. I had to go
take care of them for awhile. I have been so very sick and trying so hard to
hide it from mama but she knows. I found 14 tumors on her abdomen with my
hand we are going to her cancer dr Thursday. I am so tired and frustrated I
have 5 siblings and none of them will help me and the one that would have is
gone. I just need some emotional support right now because I feel so alone my
bottom hurts my hips my sides ever where possible between my breasts and
knees hurt. I went to see my dr Monday he put me on a 100mg patch and I do
want to sound like a baby but I am still hurting my right side where my
ovaries were is swollen up in a huge mass it hurts so bad and the 2 hernias
are not helping.Sorry to _itch and gripe. I love you all and need you now.
I can not speak without crying.All my love Dawn