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From: "marianne bolding" <email@example.com> To: "Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS" <firstname.lastname@example.org> Sent: Tuesday, August 07, 2001 3:42 PM Subject: I don't know
> Well, I had an upper GI done yesterday. Talk about
> nasty barrium stuff...bluck. Completely dehydrated my
> body...and today I have a stomach ache along with
> "pure" white diarrhea. I assume this is the barrium
> trying to get out of my symptom. Anyone been there?
> I'm going to reach out for a moment here...Ever since
> diagnosis and surgeory I seem to be declining into a
> serious mode of depression. Like "Post surgical
> trauma/stress" or something. I don't know...it just
> seems that I've had to change everything in my life.
> The way I eat, how I exert myself, eating or just
> being in public due to gas, friends you thought were
> friends---but they left you standing alone when you
> needed support (family, too), the clothes I wear
> (excessive bloating), my job and how they handled the
> whole situation with me being out of work (moving my
> office while I was out, losing my personal pictures
> and properties, threatening to fire me if I didn't
> recupe quick enough for them-even with doctors
> documents), my relationship-I was telling my husband
> last night I need more help and support mentally and
> physically...he said "Huh?" (He was watching a
> baseball game)...repeated myself and he said, "It'll
> get better."...then started yelling at the ump on t.v.
> He didn't get I needed to talk. When I told him I
> needed it desperately...he said "I'm just so tired."
> (He's always tired..or busy...or just selfish). I
> told him in advance, I wouldn't probably feel well
> after GI, I wasn't allowed to eat or even drink all
> day yesterday before the test (and it hit 105 in
> Tucson), I had only barrium in my stomach and that I
> needed him to take care of our dinner for the first
> time in 2 months. He said sure no prob. But, when
> the day rolled around...he left it in my lap again. I
> resent the fact I've been so supportive to all these
> people when they needed it...but, noone can seem to
> turn the tables back for me. My whole outlook on
> people and life is changing. I don't know...thanks
> for letting me share. And to not "thoroughly depress"
> anyone else out there by my whiny letter...How many
> cups of coffee can I drink to make my stool turn "not
> white"? LOL and Don't you hate the pimples that are
> under the skin...no whitehead so you can't squeeze
> them...but, they hurt like a you know what! LOL
> Pain-free days to all. My love, Marianne B.
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