> ----- Original Message -----
From: Sally Grigg
To: Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS
Sent: Friday, June 01, 2001 10:01 PM
Subject: Re: To Millie
Dear Millie, do you have children? I don't. My PID caused permanent infertility. I raised my step-son who had brain cancer at the age of 5, his I.Q. is 45 and to be honest, he's not very rewarding with the feed back of good vibes. He yells at me all the time for what he wants, partly because he's going deaf. We give him everything we can, but we've had to teach him manners and limits also. Everyone says what a good job we've done, but I don't see it. Anyway, I was jealous of pregnant women for years, but at some point I realized that God had fashioned a different road for me. There's no going back. Love and buck up. Tomorrow is another day. Find someone to help or something your body will let you do that feels good. And don't let anybody judge you or don't let us judge you either. No body can do that. Just do your best to stay alive and harm no one. Love and great big hugs, Sally
-- Millie wrote:Karen,I had my coat,pants and keyboard all soaked from tears. If it wasn't for Ed and my Dad, I don't think I'd be here. I hate to be honest, but everytime I see a young girl or a young woman who I know has a uterus, it makes things that much worse on me. I don't have too much to do. I do paint those little village buildings. I write things down, but not good thoughts. Thank you for 'sticking'by me.Love,Millie
> ----- Original Message ----- From: KCarter706@aol.com To: Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS Sent: Friday, June 01, 2001 5:37 PM Subject: To Millie Millie; What do you mean you have to get out of here NOW ? I hope you meant that you were just signing off the web !! Gosh, don't feel bad about crying in front of your Dad, my Mom has been calling me to see how I am feeling and for two weeks I was really down in the dumps, and I cried on the phone all the time. Then I wrote her a long email and then SHE really cried !!!
It's ok to let out your emotions, you really are dwelling too much on being obstructed, if you really think you are, then you should really go to the ER, they can do a CT Scan and tell from that I am sure. I have a hard time too when it comes to dwelling on things, so I am no better than you dwelling on things, but between yesterday and today I think I am finally pulling out of my slump (depression). My psychiatrist changed my Serax (anti-anxiety medication)to Klonopin the other night and I think that might have something to do with it. And my pain management clinic prescribed for me something new for pain yesterday and I already feel it working. I only need two a day, it's not Oxycontin either, and the last time I took one was at 5:30 a.m., here it is 12 hours later and I don't think I quite need one yet. Not unless the "DEVIL" pain shoots down my leg unexpectedly.
You take care of yourself and please think positive thoughts, find a craft of hobby to do, is there anything you like to do to occupy your time? There are hundreds of things that you could do to take your mind off some of your ailments, I know from myself it helps. I worked in the garden the other day and it kind of helped.
I wish you the best always, Pain Free Days,
Love,
Karen C.
Karen Carter