What do you mean you have to get out of here NOW ? I hope you meant that you were just signing off the web !! Gosh, don't feel bad about crying in front of your Dad, my Mom has been calling me to see how I am feeling and for two weeks I was really down in the dumps, and I cried on the phone all the time. Then I wrote her a long email and then SHE really cried !!!
It's ok to let out your emotions, you really are dwelling too much on being obstructed, if you really think you are, then you should really go to the ER, they can do a CT Scan and tell from that I am sure. I have a hard time too when it comes to dwelling on things, so I am no better than you dwelling on things, but between yesterday and today I think I am finally pulling out of my slump (depression). My psychiatrist changed my Serax (anti-anxiety medication)to Klonopin the other night and I think that might have something to do with it. And my pain management clinic prescribed for me something new for pain yesterday and I already feel it working. I only need two a day, it's not Oxycontin either, and the last time I took one was at 5:30 a.m., here it is 12 hours later and I don't think I quite need one yet. Not unless the "DEVIL" pain shoots down my leg unexpectedly.
You take care of yourself and please think positive thoughts, find a craft of hobby to do, is there anything you like to do to occupy your time? There are hundreds of things that you could do to take your mind off some of your ailments, I know from myself it helps. I worked in the garden the other day and it kind of helped.
I wish you the best always, Pain Free Days,
Love,
Karen C.
Karen Carter