Thanks so much for your encouraging words, I will do my best to keep going and remain positive. Good luck to you next month and I will be thinking of you.
Love, pascale Vlaun
At Mon, 22 Jan 2001, Dee wrote:
>
>Hi Pascale,
>
>Please remember that you are not alone... I will be having surgery in
>PA with Drs. Redan & Reich next month and I too am scared. All sorts
>of weird thoughts going on in my mind. At times I'm afraid of what they
>are going find and other times I am afraid they won't find anything.
>What if the pain goes away and my bitchy mood doesn't? What if I find
>out I really am depressed? What if the surgery doesn't help me? And on,
>and on, and on. But I will put my fears aside and SO WILL YOU... and
>in just a short time from now we will be encouraging our sisters to take
>the same steps cause everything turned out fine and we are finally
>LIVING LIFE again instead of just surving one day at a time. I find
>that prayer helps cause God has seen me through worse than what I am
>facing now. And I have a theme song (I stole the idea from the Ally
>McBeal TV show). Whenever my thoughts are getting me down I sing this
>song to myself. It make me smile and chases all the "nasties" away.
>Good Luck to you!
>
>At Mon, 22 Jan 2001, Pascale Vlaun wrote:
>>
>>Hello,
>>
>>I have been busy the whole of last week to get my medical reports ready
>>and I send an informative e-mail to Dr Korell in Germany, I am still
>>waiting for his reply.
>>I got everything in order with the insurance company, thank God for
>>that, because I would not have been able to pay for this myself.
>>But the weird thing is, now that I got a little hope for a better
>>future, I am scared !
>>Scared to go, scared for my future and scared for another surgery;all
>>past surgeries ended up in complications and more surgeries.
>>My GYN in StMaarten and in Holland both think that a laparoscopy is not
>>possible by me because of the massive adhesions on the abdominal wall.
>>I am actually thinking of backing out and just learn to live with the
>>pain.
>>And that pain is getting more severe every day, my painmedication is so
>>high right now (with still little relief )that I am walking around the
>>whole day as if I am high on drugs.
>>I know I would not be able to life like this much longer, but I am so
>>scared of what will happen.
>>And nobody around me seems to understand that !
>>Everybody tells me to go for it and to have faith, and I just don't know
>>anymore.
>>
>>I just needed to get this out !
>>
>>With all my love and friendship,
>>Pascale Vlaun
>>St Maarten
>
>--
>Dee
>