Toni, I am fairly new to this board and am finding it to be very helpfull. I have read several of your posts and I feel for you. I 2 know about loosing family members and whats it is like to watch them go down hill.My mother took sick when I was 5 ( brain anerisim) and laid in a coma blind, deaf, paralysed, and mute. She stayed this way for 14 years. I have some sad memories and some happy ones. I can remember the day my Father came home and explained to us mom was never coming home. I can even tell what clothes I was wearing and also my sisters. My dads Mom helped raise us kids and she passed away when I wasnt ready to let go. I have terrible times around the dates of thier deaths and thier B_Days. What I have found to help cope with this is I sit back and pray. I realize that my Loss is Gods gain. They are both up in heaven and I strongly believe that they are watching over me and my family. I try to remember the good times that we shared and thier warm hugs. The pain of loosing them and watching thier bodys go through so much and in my Grandmothers case so fast and unexpected is still with me and will always remain but I try real hard just to stay focused on what we shared. Remember even though she is gone her love for you is till there. My heart goes out to you and your family. I will say a special prayer for you and your father in law.