I know how you feel, I have had 23 surgeries, and I have needed one for awhile now, but I guess they are wantin 1600 upfront because my insurance didn't pay all of it last time because of bein out of state, but I have been on pain meds for awhile, they do help somedays, somedays I really have a very hard time even on my meds, I couldnt go without them though because my pain is so bad also, I havent had a life in many years, I havent even been able to be the mother I want to be because of this. I really wish that medical people would listen to the doctors that do know about this disease, and it is a disease, I have went to a few different pain docs and I am goin to someone I really really like she understand my disease she has looked up stuff on adhesions so she can try to help me more, I really think that you need to get in now to see someone so you dont lose your job and all your freedom like I have, good luck to you.