Susan, I can understand totally what you are going through and will keep you in my prayers. But in the meantime, you should check out a website : http://www.adlap.com. There are doctors there who will be able to help you. As far as disability goes in your state, I would try to look online for your state and disability, to see what kind of info you can find. I unfortunately can't afford to go on disability, because in my state, you have to be unemployed for a yr. I can't live on nothing. I am supporting myself and it is difficult. I hope and pray you get approved. Dalene