Im sorrry but this will be a short note and dont know when I will be on
next. My lofe has taken a drastic turn for the worst since getting out
of the hospital. I live in a daily hourly fear of this horrid place i
am currently in. I have been having horrrifiic panic attacks one after
the other since i practically got out of the hospital. the docotrs
think that is from comming off of the morphine and all the pain ive been
enduring for the last three years. Im so sorry i cant be with you all
but right now im sturggling to survive. I love you all and miss you but
this may be it for a while till i can be human again. Er doc is getting
me into a Phychiatric program starting Monday hopefully to gert on the
proper meds and what not. IM so sooory I love you all and my heart is
breaking here as im writing this letter. tears are streaming down my
face. i want to be there for you all as you have been there for me. I
do ask something of you though. PPlease pray for my family so that they
will get theeir Mommy back. I am so scared they will think im crazy and
try to take my loves awaay from me.