Hi Sweets Brokenwing,
What you described in your feelings about love making and feeling bad about
your husband TOTALLY describes my love life.
I told Pete, that I could do "other" things to satisfy him, but he won't go
there. He said, if you can't enjoy, I can't. But the thing is, I don't
enjoy. It hurts during sex, like he's hitting something and it only causes
pain. The pain after sex sometimes lasts for 2 days then I go back to my
regular devil pain.
All this has happened since my TAH that I lost that loving feeling. I had
feelings before the TAH, even with my devil pain, but now I don't have one
ounce of the feeling.
I know that men can take viagra, what can woman take? I want the feeling
back, not only for my husband, but for me too. Prior my TAH and I had the
feeling, I didn't care about the extra pain because I got to share that
special time I only share with my husband. I would deal with the pain after
wards but told myself, at least I know why I had pain - it's because I had
sex. What do we do? Who or what can help us? I know my husband wouldn't
stray just for sex. He is a very patient man when it comes to that because he
hates to see me in pain. But I want that special time with him and I miss it
Thank you for sharing Brokenwing - thank you for letting me know as well that
I'm not alone when it comes to intimacy non-feelings. Now what? ")
Love and lots of hugs coming your way Sweet Brokenwing,