Re: Sorry, haven't been here
From: Karen Carter (carter123@comcast.net)
Wed May 1 18:57:54 2002
At Wed, 1 May 2002, Robin wrote:
>
>Dear Helen,
>I am sorry you are so down. I wish I could help take the pain away. I
>also understand the depression & deperation that adhesions cause. Take
>my hand, I am here.
>love
>robin
>
>At Wed, 1 May 2002, Hchalm@aol.com wrote:
>>
>>To my IAS Family:
>>
>>Sorry I haven't been here, but when I am not feeling well, I feel I have
>>nothing that I can offer anyone here when my pain is overtaking me mentally
>>and physically. When I come back I feel quilty that I haven't been here for
>>those that need help, but I just don't have the energy or strength to really
>>give the attention and help to those that need it.
>>
>>I myself don't want to just come to the board and complain about this darn
>>pain, so I tend to stay away. For some reason the pain has been relentless
>>and I can't remember the last time I was pain free hour (I just want an hour
>>to feel normal to not have this crushing terrible pain in my side that just
>>will not let up). After days and days of fighting the pain one just feels so
>>drained, so helpless, so useless, that there's nothing left to give.
>>
>>I was putting the dishes away the other night and there was a large knife
>>lying on the counter and I couldn't help but look at it and think how easy it
>>would be to just end all the pain in just a matter of seconds. Horrible
>>thought, I know, and because of my children I wouldn't do it, but it seemed
>>so easy and the thought of going on fighting this year after year after year
>>is just too depressing. I almost wish that I could have surgery because then
>>there would be some possibility of getting rid of this pain but because of
>>the possibility of nerve damage or nerve entrapment I don't think that a
>>surgeon would touch me or be able to help me with the pain.
>>
>>See, this is why I haven't been here; nothing good to say; and of course the
>>saying goes, if you don't have anything good to say, don't say anything at
>>all....
>>
>>Gosh, bet I put a smile on everyone's face with this one. Sorry gals, I
>>didn't mean to be so down. Hey, wanna hold my hand?
>>
>>I love all of you and do miss you.
>>
>>Hell-yun
Dear Helen Hell-yun:
I am so sorry you can't seem to find any answers to your pain. I
wondered why I hadn't seen you post recently. I was just thinking of
emailing you when I saw your post(s). Glad to see you were able to let
us all know how you are doing, please know we are all here for you and
love you. Be well, most of all keep that free spirit I have always
adored.
Love Karen C.