Bonnie L.
I am sorry you were is such pain and despair. I just read your posting or
would have responded sooner. I am new to this and when I downloaded my email
this morning I had 246 messages!
I know exacting how you felt, unless you have suffered with adhesions it is
hard to understand. Everyone else thinks it is like bad cramps, it is not! I
had suffered with this for 23 years with no-one believing the pain could be
that bad!
It started with an appendectomy when I was 8 months pregnant with my one and
only child. I had a surgical hernia from the that. Within the first 3 years
of delivery, I had 3 ovarian abcyst rupture. Putting me in the Hospital for
a week each time, too infected to do surgery.
I was told by numerous doctors over the years that all this had caused
adhesions, tipped my uterus to the back and left side, possibly fussed my
bladder to my uterus,etc. I was unable to conceive after this, tubes also
blocked. I went to several infertility specialist, with no results, they
would not even run test except a pap smear and blood work. Finally 7 years
ago I thought I was going to get some results, I was scheduled for a
Laparoscopy, D&C, and?. The day before surgery, my insurance cancelled it,
reason, " Dr. did not perform enough tests, ie; ultrasound, etc." I never
did have the tests done by this Dr. even though I continued to go to him
till this past year! I was told by him , "It could not be that Bad!" This
past October the pain was so bad I could not get out of bed for days at a
time. I laid in a fetal position crying, eating over the counter pain meds
like candy! I was literally sick to my stomach from pain. When the pain let
up enough to return to work with only occasional doubling over, my boss told
me about his wives Dr. I made an appointment, had the scare of my life,
(after tests the Dr. thought I had Cancer!) In November I had the long
awaited Laparoscopy, I had severe Adhesions, my bladder, uterus, abdominal
wall, small intestines and tubes were fussed together with strings of scar
tissue, the left ovary could not be found at all because of the adhesions,
the right one could barely be seen through a tumor totally enclosing it. On
top of this, I had endemetrious. In December I underwent a Total
hysterectomy. I am, at least for now, pain free! I feel like a new person !
Yes, I have had bouts of depression since, but being pain free, even if it
is for a short time is worth it. I am rediscovering who I am. I had lost
myself in the pain so many years ago. I had given up all hope of feeling
normal again, I had become a bitter, lonely person. Lonely in that no-one
understood what I was going through, the frustration, the pain, always the
pain. Don't give up! There is help out there! YOU ARE NOT ALONE! I am Glad
to hear you feel better today!!!!! All relief, no matter how small is a
blessing! I am sorry I went on so much about my problems, I think I did it
as much for me as for you! Still healing mentally and emotionally I guess. I
hope all this helps you and I am sure your suffering will not be near as
long as mine. Dr's are finally starting to realize that we do have serious
problems, it is not just in our heads and starting to actually do something
about it! I am here if you want to write me. I wish I had found this site
years ago ! I don't always check my email daily , so don't get discouraged
if you don't get a reply right away, I know your suffering, and am here to
lend an ear ! Only wish I could lend a shoulder to cry on when needed! Take
Care Bonnie !
Your fellow sufferer,
Melinda
P.S.- My email address is mkmdam@msn.com Feel free to write me here if I
can be of help.