ADHESIONS Messages for February, 2002: Re: Why I'm having another lap and...

Dear Sue,

If only I could fly through cyber space and give you one of my special gentle hugs..... I understand, most of us here do.... we have been in your situation and we are here for you no matter what. Best wishes & prayers, lets hope that some solution can be found for you.

Just promise us one thing, come back to us after surgery, and find someone to keep us posted on how you go in surgery and during recovery until you can get back to us yourself. This board is all about helping us all cope, day by day, and if a purge is what you need, then let it rip as often as you like..... you see, I tend to be the chatterbox of this group

So best wishes to you and let us know when the surgery is..... we will be praying for you and waiting to hear how you are.

Love and warm gentle hugs,

Jo www.bombobeach.com

>From: T423@att.net (Sue)

>Reply-To: adhesions@adhesions.org

>To: Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS

>Subject: Why I'm having another lap and...

>Date: Fri, 1 Feb 2002 21:15:39 -0600

>To all in this group:

>After reading many of your heartfelt messages, I feel the need to

>express why I have agreed, and actually requested to have another

>laparoscopy.

>It is not so much the many types of pain I have experienced be it

>sitting (which also seems to go along with pelvic congestion syndrome),

>but also like many of you, standing, lying down, walking, bending, etc.,

>etc., it is the sickening and totally debilitating gastrointestinal

>problems that may be the result of adhesions or, possibly endometriosis

>or both. Thank god the pain can be managed with meds. As for the

>gastrointestinal symptoms, the drug companies haven't come up with meds

>that seem to do the trick at least not totally. If it weren't for

>Reglan, my bowels, in particular my sigmoid wouldn't move at all. What

>I cannot endure is both - pain, and feeling like I'm going to vomit, or

>the extreme agitation I experience from the burning-like pain I have in

>my lower abdomen at 3:30 A.M., every A.M. which is only relieved when a

>stand up, walk around for a bit and hopefully have a bowel movement.

>After that if I'm lucky, I'm able to get back to sleep.

>On top of all of this, there's depression. I feel my life has been

>robbed. I should be grateful that I am in fact alive as, I was

>diagnosed and treated successfully (I hope) for early stage breast

>cancer last year, but I guess maybe I'm greedy. I want to be able to

>enjoy my life HOPEFULLY longer than a couple of days a month which

>brings me to the laparoscopy. I need to know what is going on in there,

>have the situation assessed and if its not any worse than the second lap

>which was virtually clean then perhaps take down the adhesions and

>remove any endo and perhaps I can get some relief and enjoy a little of

>my life.

>I'm sorry that this is so long. I guess I needed to purge so to speak.

>I've been so ill for so long and most of the time I feel so terribly

>alone in all of this #!*& until I come here. Please forgive me.

>Thank you for opening your hearts.

>Love,

>Sue