J&L VERMEY wrote:
> I'm so upset! I've been sending my family information pertaining to my
> illness, and to do with chronic pain - as their support, frankly put,
> really SUX! Their response: "Please don't send anymore - we're too
> busy to read it." In other words - THEY CAN'T BE BOTHERED!!!! I give
> up! I totally give up! I'm never going to receive the support I wish I
> could get from them - I really feel my family doesn't give a damn! I'm
> feeling SOOOOO HURT! They don't understand, they don't want to
> understand! I'm really starting to hate and disrespect my family -
> they claim to be Christians - and always act so "holy", but when it
> comes to supporting their daughter and sister - I only get preached
> at! I only get criticised, negative criticism, never positive. They're
> so involved in living their own life's that they NEVER consider what I
> am going through? They don't give a stuff about the fact that day in
> day out I am in so much pain that I can't think straight, that often I
> go around feeling like I have to vomit, that often I can't eat
> anything for days! When they see what a mess my home is in I'm accused
> of being lazy. I'm always being accused of the fact that I'm not a
> good wife - that I don't provide John with enough support - that I
> don't always cook the evening meal. I get asked so often the question
> "when are you going to lose some weight?" - as if they are so
> perfect! I don't know for how much longer I can put up with that kind
> of support! I am so close to cutting ALL CONTACT with my family - and
> to think STUFF THEM! I try and try and try. But they shoot me down
> whenever they can. They are always letting me down. Who needs family
> like that? I need them like I need a hole in my head!!! I can't stop
> crying... And I was feeling so optimistic this morning. Now all I can
> feel is my pain. And John is out of the office for a couple of hours -
> so I can't talk to him! Lin