Hi to all my old friends,
I must apologize for not writing for so long. It feels so good to read
your postings and know that I am not alone. As many of you recall, I
went to Germany in April, 2001 for my second surgery (in Germany)for an
entrapped nerve and adhesions. I do believe that the adhesions are gone
now but as the nerve heals ( it is at the top of the vaginal wall) and
scars over, the pain slowly returns. I have been fighting this thing
for 4 years now and with each surgery, the pain decreases by about 50%.
But, I still remain on 2 to 3 Methadones a day and I hate it. I was
thinking that I didn't belong on this sight with my adhesions being gone
but the nerve is also a form of scar tissue and as I read your postings,
I know that it is the same thing. Pain and suffering.
I will never give up hope however and refuse to live the rest of my life
like this. But I know one thing for sure. NO MORE SURGERIES! I still
fight every day to gain my strength back from all my surgeries. I
started on some herbs in August and have been detoxing my body for all
these months. I gave up sugar, dairy, white flour, and am working on
giving up meat. I actually got a job after 4 years of disablility and I
am caretaking the elderly. I love it so much. It makes me feel so good
to get my mind off myself and focus on others that have it worse than I
do. Although sometimes I feel like they have better health than me.
My hope for 2002 is to continue on these wonderful herbs and fill my
body with all the good things of the earth in hopes that my body will
regenerate itself. And I am also looking into getting a morphine pump
put in. I refuse to stay on these pain meds! I am so scared about what
the long term effect will be. With love to all. I pray that we all
find peace and hope this year!