>----- Original Message -----
From: "Janet" <jkaram4@home.com>
To: "Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS"
<adhesions@mail.medispecialty.com>
Sent: Saturday, July 07, 2001 12:51 AM
Subject: Moving to the basement
> Dear Everybody,
>
> I debated writing this message to the board because of the nature, then
> when i thought some more, I decided to go ahead, after all, it is
> adhesion related and I need some extra lovin' and support...you can pour
> on as much mushiness as you can possibly gush out, I promise to soak it
> all up.
>
> My relationship has turned into a total disaster, it was tough before my
> surgery, and now that I am once again "limited" due to pain and other
> symptoms, my partner is full of rage, resentment and feeling terribly
> cheated of the life he has imagined. He says I'm the woman of his
> dreams, everything he's ever wanted, but...
>
> It is very painful for me to let this relationship go, though that is
> what it has come to. I have loved this man with heart and soul and I am
> overwhelmed with grief that he cannot accept or adjust to living with my
> ARD, ultimately it feels like a rejection of me, and hurts my heart more
> than I can possibly say.
>
> I have not been able to get back on my feet finacially since my surgery.
> My partner and my family have been helping me finacially for a good
> while now, it pains me to be so dependent.
>
> Tonight, I am moving to the basement to try to gain a little more peace.
> I love Colorado, but have no family or means to stay here, so have
> decided to move back to Texas, where my parents have offered for me to
> live with them.
>
> You all are my friends, and I just wanted to share what was going on
> with me. There have been several wonderful angels helping through this
> behind the scenes, and I would like to take this opportunity to express
> my gratitude and love to all of you...you know who you are!
>
> All of my love,
>
> Janet
>