>----- Original Message -----
From: "Colette " <anonymous@medispecialty.com>
To: "Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS"
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Sent: Monday, February 26, 2001 5:41 PM
Subject: Millie I too have tried that bottle of pills;please read!
> the days are very hard on me too! I tried to down a whole bottle of
> pills about 2 weeks ago. the had a crisis team at my house that i
> called in desperation its called empact. I was on a suicide watch for 3
> days.
> I know exactly how you feel, its very frustrating. And don't think i
> still don't think about it boy i do somedays. This weekend was awful we
> were suppose to go to the zoo. But i took some good old milk of
> magnesia which sent to the toilet with the runs good for me but needed
> the toilet all day. If i don't take it i don't go. I feel like my
> daughter does'nt have a mom gosh i feel like i ruin everyones fun. Like
> i asked for this it really does suck. I get so depressed and so angry
> that this is happening to me. Last wens. when i came home from the ER
> i wanted to take a bottle of sleeping pills, I figured that if i did it
> just right i'd end up in the ER have my stomach pumped and then they
> would ask me why i took the pills! Ok i it would probley all go wrong
> and i'd end up dead and my husband would have to explain to my 3 yr old
> why mommy killed herself! Then i came to the conclusion that i don't
> give up this easy i'm a fighter! I'm still going how i don't know!
> Sometimes i pray that i won't wake up but i do so God wants me to keep
> going. I would love to find some counsling that i can afford.So see
> your not the only one with those feelings they are very hard to fight
> sometimes but we have to fight them together and for everyone around us
> that loves us. Think how they would feel if we just stopped fighting. I
> know its hard but hang in there please i love you!
>