This is my first message posted but i have been a member for quite a
while. It makes me cry every time i get online and read the mail. I do
not take releif in knowing that countless individuals suffer so much
more than I have. I had my first abdominal surgery at age 16
(appendectomy). He did a low transverse cause of the location of my
pain(exploratory reasons). I am 37 now. After that I have had multiple
other abdominal surgeries (about 14, for various other reasons,
including adhesion related bowel obstructions). I am a R.N., my husband
is also a nurse and i have 2 teenage kids. For most of their life i
have been in and out of the hospital(more so than not). Cause of my job
and history of illnesses, i have contracted the wonderful hospital
acquired diseases. This includes MRSA and VRE. I have not worked in
well over a year.Every time im in the hospital i almost die due to
complications. Due to my age and education i am having a hard time
getting disability. Has anyone had such problems. I am also getting a
lawyer soon for appeal. I am ashamed to say that one night at home due
to extreme depression and various other reasons( not that there is a
"good" reason), i tried to kill myself. Obviously it didnt work! I just
wanted my family not to have to continue to go through everything i was
putting them through. I do now know that they would rather have me
alive and sick then not to have me around at all.This past year i have
been in the hospital way more than i have been home. This is a battle
of chronic component that i would not wish on anyone. THANKS FOR
LISTENING!