hello dear friends......from accross the water
From: Angelofdali@aol.com
Fri Jul 18 20:21:52 2003
hi lisa,
i must admit i am getting a little confused about the two doctors names that
seem to be brought up..some for .....some against.......
i have been to my doctor this week and the adhesions are in my back...have 2
clots in my lung. and also (sorry to be crude) but Havant been able to make
love for so long...think i am a born again virgin...due to the adhesions in my
tukki(female bits)
oh i do feel so bad writing that i feel so unwell, ts very hard for me to
tell anyone. and feel like i am a nuisance, whinging on.....
but here i go again
i am on cipramil....anti depressants and although have been on them for just
over a month, am so sad.
if tears could heal....none of us would be on here would we.
it was so kind of you to email me.
the costs at the moment are far too high, as i am not working and do not have
insurance,
we have what they call NHS here in the uk. but. the docs are very busy and
just seems to give you a scan and enema just to keep you quiet (i am NOT saying
all uk doctors are the same. as mine!
i have an ileostomy,
and that is the oddest thing to give me an enema, as every thing goes in
there ...not thru my bottom.the ileostomy (a bag) it has helped with the
blockages
but the adhesions are pulling the stoma back into my tummy, therefore, the
faeces is going into my body.
i am living on soup, and chocolate..and ice cream, cereals at the moment, as
anything such as bread, or meat fish anything that doesnt sldie down causes a
blockage.
i am so tired...of this....
i had such high hopes for the sepra film, i was the 2nd person in the uk t
have it inserted into my tummy.
but the doctor told me this week. that they cannot go in any more as its like
a thick wedge of cement, that would be ideal for the foundations of a house
to be built on.
and they cannot get in there even to divide the adhesions, so you had better
get used to living with them..as no one will touch you now ... in your state,
i was soooooo very,,huh......devastated,
this feels very selfish of me writing this, as everyone on here ......bless
you all,are in as much pain as i am,
i am not used to telling friends all the details....
but i thank you all for your prayers ..and love....
i think that the thought of never finding anyone to love me ..as i am.is also
making me sad,
there has been times that i have met a chap,and because of the bag he has
turned on his heels and walked away, you may well say ..."he wasn't worthy of my
love"
but with this constant chronic pain no one will want me
.it also seems i will never be able to work..
oh dear i am going on a bit....sorry x
i really have tried it all.even paid a healer $300 as he said he could heal
me .....as he had letters from which he showed me ..how he had helped
others.........
anyway......you have been so kind to me,,,,,,,
as i have tried everything, please if i can help anyone with any
procedure(information)........please do get in touch with me....
thank you everyone........for being so sweet and helping me......these are
dark days for me at the moment. but i will get tough soon as i usually
do............just taking a litle longer this time...
you never know what is around the corner .......i pray......that one day
...soon...there will be something to help us all.......
and a big hug from accross the water to you Lisa, and all my new special
friends.......annemarie xxx