Re: Almost back to normal

From: Robin M (rmasse2333@aol.com)
Fri Jul 11 12:06:33 2003


Dear Dawn & All, My moment to shine on this board has been covered up with controversey. But, I am shinning anyway, just not here. It is a shame that so much is going on here. I too remember when I found this site about 3 years ago. At that time, my Drs were telling me I was 1 in 10,000! I have gone to so many Drs & through every test there is, being told there were no more tests for me to have. I have been told it was all in my head, I have been told I was addicted to pain meds. I was told adhesions don't cause pain. I was told I had IBS. I was told I had chronic pelvic pain, but there was nothing to be done. I was told by Drs they wouldn't touch me with a 10 ft pole. I did not have a life. I missed the person, the woman, the mother & wife I once was. I have suffered from depression since pre teen, & the pain & frustration added to it. I have been suicidal so many times. I was planning on doing something so many times. Not just one plan, I had played out in my head so many different ways to end it all. At one point, My husband tried to get me commited to the psyc ward, but my insurance wouldn't cover it. We nearly lost everything because of this "illness". I had to sell my car, my stocks, closed out my savings account, we ended up filing bankruptsy, we did get to keep our house, since we were current. We even had our electricity turned off at one point. We did get to keep Dans 1988 toyota with over 300000 miles on it. We borrowed money from everyone we knew just to keep the kids fed. Dan missed so much work because he had to take me to Drs appointments all accross New Mexico & in to Texas. I am so thankful he did not leave me. Many men have left. This is such a burden on everyone. This "illness" robs so many of so much. This arguing has to STOP!! If it doesn't stop, then everyone will loose even more!, this site and the help it provides. I just want every one to get the support that I got when I first found this site. Dawn, your posts did not offend me. I do want to be an insperation to everyone. Hope is out there. I pray that one day, this board will not be needed because ARD suffering will be a thing of the past, but until then, lets get back to what this board is supposed to be, a place of support, love, concern and hope. my love & prayers to all robin m

At Fri, 11 Jul 2003, Dawn wrote: >
>Dearest Robin,
>I am so happy to hear this and and once again your moment to shine in
>the sun was clouded in contoversy. A lot my fault and I apologize to
>you and all I may have offended. It was not my intention.
>Go, eat, drink and be merry and continue to be an insipration to us all!
>There is hope for all! Hang on.
>Love,
>Dawn
>>
>>Dear All,
>>It has been a month since my 2nd look surgery with Dr Korell & spray
>>gel. I am slowly getting off my pain meds. Only about 1 1/2 weeks to
>>go. I am feeling better & better each day & sooooo busy. Having fun
>>trying to make up for lost time with my family. Every day it is like a
>>dream come true for me. In May, I had been in bed 90 % of the time with
>>strong pain meds & still having pain. Now, I am walking in the store
>>instead of using the electric cart. (I would like to run, skip & jump,
>>but Leigh Ann wont let me!!) I have been painting the bathroom &
>>redecorating it. I have been planting flowers & doing crafts. Every
>>day, there seems to be more & more for me to do. I have started
>>cleaning my house & plan to start cooking again soon. I am having fun
>>with Leigh Ann. We are always laughing about something. The change in
>>our relationship is great. I think she likes haveing her mom back. I
>>know Dan likes having his wife back. (if you know what I mean!!??) I am
>>leaving Friday afternoon to go to Frances & Eric's. The baby will be
>>coming soon & I don't want to miss it. Her original due date was July
>>13. It is also a full moon. She has been having lots of pelvic pain &
>>presure, and it has been 3 weeks since the baby dropped. Everything
>>indicates it will be any day now. I am planning on spending 2-3 weeks
>>with them. It sure will help with both our phone bills since we talk to
>>each other several times a day.
>>Dr Korell gave me life. I was on a dead end road, comming to a brick
>>wall, going 90 mph! I still cry happy tears when I am asked how I am
>>doing. I had forgotten what it felt like to live. I keep track of
>>things by how old my kids are & what was happening to them. This year
>>will be remembered in lots of different ways. Our Son graduated from
>>High School. Our first born daughter is having her first born daughter.
>>Leigh Ann (our baby) turned 16. I got my life back.
>>If you would like more information about my surgery, how I am doing,
>>what kinds of problems I was having before, or how to get in touch with
>>Dr Korell, please let me know. You are always welcome to send me a
>>personal email.
>>My love & prayers to all,
>>Robin M
>
>--
>I'm no doctor, just a fellow sufferer like you but I hope you consider me a new friend.
>


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