Re: Annemarie, Where are You?

From: AnnMarie (sweetlilqt913@aol.com)
Sun Jun 22 12:01:43 2003


Thank you sherry. I really am aswwet girl, butsome times feel like this pain is making a monster out of me. Agian thank you for keeping me in your prayers I will do the same for you.

At Sun, 22 Jun 2003, AnnMarie wrote: >
>DEAR ANNMARIE,
>SAW YOU POSTED AND JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW I WAS THINKING ABOUT YOU AND
>WILL SAY A LITTLE PRAYER FOR YOU TONIGHT.
>YOU SOUND LIKE SUCH A SWEET GIRL AND SOOO YOUNG TO HAVE ALL THE PROBLEMS YOU
>DO. I , TOO , SUFFER FROM ADHESIONS AND KNOW ALL TOO WELL THE PAIN YOU ARE
>GOING THRU.
>YOU ARE IN MY THOUGHTS,
>SHERRY G.
>-----Original Message-----
>From: "AnnMarie" <sweetlilqt913@aol.com>
>To: "Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS" <adhesions@dns.obgyn.net>
>Date: Sunday, June 22, 2003 12:03 AM
>Subject: Re: Annemarie, Where are You?
>
>>I'm not sure if you were asking aout me or if there is another AnnMarie
>>here.
>>well if it was me, thank you very much for askin about me. I still come
>>on the site every night, I just havent posted a message in a while,
>>because I have been so sad and upset lately. I have just been thinking
>>about how I had so many dreams and high expactaions for myself, and
>>wondering if they are ever gonna come true. Since I was four I wanted
>>to be a nurse so I can help people.But I figure how in the world am I
>>ever going to be able to help people if I cant even help myself and need
>>to take medication . I'm not even sure how long I have had adhesions,
>>since I had my first abdominal surgery when I was 5 weeks old,for my vp
>>shunt and had a few more from then untill I was in 5th grade the after
>>that all heck broke loose.I had tons of surgeries on my shunt and since
>>7th,grade have had many gyno surgeries with a total of 23 surgeries.and
>>my mom
>>told me I always complained "my belly hurt." and up untill last year I
>>had alot of pain which was told was from "massive adhesions " that
>>"adheared everythin to everything, and there wasnt a single organ in my
>>pelvis that was free. after having 4 surgeries in 2 months because
>>everytime I had surgery on my shunt they would close me up and the
>>abdominal incsion would got infected all over agian, and that was july
>>of last year (2002)with the longest hospital stay being 37 days, plus
>>going home on IV meds for 2 months after. So my first summer after
>>graduatin high school(I graduated june 7th 2002) i spent in the hospital
>>and at home hooked up to an IV. So I expected to start my way on my
>>dream to be a nurse this summer and start taking summer classes little
>>did I know that starting last december the pain I used to have alot
>>turned into every day horrible pain that I need to take medication for,
>>and because I have had so many meds from past surgeries and havea very
>>high tolerence to them, nothing seems to work, well. I'm on 40mg of oxy
>>contin and max of 2 a day of oxycodone IR for breakthrough pain, and i
>>still get ons of break through pain and can never sleep. the meds dont
>>make me sleepy at all.I'm also on 50 mg of zoloft for anxity and i was
>>on 300 mg of neurontin but it made my legs hurt so bad and made my hands
>>tingle and go numb, so i only take 100 sometimes 200 mgs o it now.I just
>>feel like I'm never gonna be a normal person nevermind a norma 19 yr.
>>old. and eveything I've always wanted t do is never going to happen. As
>>far as gettin my pcp to give my insurence permission so they will cover
>>it for me to go to PA to have surgery with D.r Gerhart and hopfully Dr
>>reich too, I am getting so fusterated. I dont know what else I can say
>>or do to get him to let me go. I havent even made my next follow up
>>appt.to talk abou my meds untill I get to the pain clinic july 11th
>>cause I'm afriad when I go he wil ask me how the meds r workin and when
>>I tell him i still have alot of break thru pain he will get mad and just
>>takeme off all the meds, and then i will have nothing. I dont know my
>>next appt, I am going to take my mom with me since she canbepersistant
>>when she needs to be. I just wish he's realize that I want to live a
>>normallife someda and make all my dreams come true while I still can and
>>have a family somday. I know i've said this before but I'm sorry to cme
>>on here and complain and write a long boring book. I just dont know hat
>>else to d anymore, I'm so so sad and fusterated an upset, I have been
>>talking with Dawn ose and she helps SOOOO much, just by being there, and
>>se actually got me info n a uro/gyno that i am going to go see after i
>>go to the pain clinic, but she has her own life,and is going thru some
>>things right now and I feel bad bothering her with mine. Well I guess I
>>will stop boring everyone and complaing ad go lay in bed and not fall
>>asleep ( haha) I hope everyone is doind alot better them I am and I wish
>>everyone pain free days ahead.
>>
>>At Sat, 21 Jun 2003, Sally Grigg wrote:
>>>
>>>Dear Annemaire, How are you doing? Did you post and I missed it?
>>>I hope you're okay. Sometimes I get busy, though I try to check the IAS
>>>Board everyday, sometimes I don't always succeed. Anyway, thinking of
>>>you.
>>>Love, Sally Grigg
>>


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