Dear Holly,
I am sooooo very glad for you and your mom!!! I know exactly
what you mean when you say, "My mom essentially left us over
a year ago"..............it is so very sad to see the person you love
dearly to be in such agony and pain. I also know how you feel
when you express your disbelief that surgery made her WORSE
instead of better.......it leaves the patient and family in complete
dismay, unbelief and fear, as you begin to think there is NO hope.
I came across a line stating "surgery can actually cause
more adhesion formation" on the Internet while in the motel room
right after Melissa's 2nd US surgery. I silently cried all night long
and felt guilt beyond belief---could not even utter the words to my
husband over the phone; after all, I was the one that had insisted
this surgery would be the one to really help her........we flew home with
that statement running over and over like a tape in my head......and
I sure couldn't tell Melissa......when I got home and alone with my
husband I sobbed and sobbed to him what I had read. He cried too,
but we both tried to console each other that perhaps it wasn't true.
I began immediately preparing that it would be. This is when I found
out more about Dr. Kruschinski and I immediately wrote him about
Melissa and her surgeries................sure enough, within just a few
short months, we were faced with Melissa in more pain and episodes
of doubled-over, moaning, vomiting, etc..........
Your mom is so very lucky to have such a sweet and caring daughter.
That also tells me how very much she loves you!
We will be praying for you and your mom, a safe journey and a healed
body............
Love,
Karen
-------Original Message-------
From: adhesions@adhesions.org
Date: Friday, June 20, 2003 12:37:28 PM
To: Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS
Subject: my mom going to germany
Thanks to Karen, Carolyn and Helen, we are scheduled with Dr.
Kruschinski for surgery on July 11. The last procedure Mom had one
month ago has left her much worse. She is pretty much down to eating
broth, doubled over in pain every waking second, I can't understand how
she endures but only because there is hope! My thoughts on having to go
to Germany: I really believe we gave it a shot with American doctors.
Even this last procedure, I was skeptical, but she said she had no
choice, and it has left her in a real mess, and I didn't think she could
get worse. I guess you can't die from adhesions but I swear I don't see
her lasting another year like this. It feels life and death to me, even
if it is just quality of life. My Mom essentially left us a year ago, I
just want her back and will do anything to make that happen! So off we
go, wish us luck. I will keep posting. Her second look is scheduled on
my birthday, that will be the best present ever if she is pain-free when
we return. Thanks so much to this Forum and all your support, you have
really been angels! Holly and Angie (my Mom)