Thanks, especially to Cindy for the extra sweet, encouraging email. I
read the posts every evening. LOTS OF EMAILS!! It is worth it
though--this is such a great group of people. Just wish it was a better
subject like "brownie addicts" or something! We could just discuss
recipes, how many we've eaten, nuts or no nuts.....you get the idea.
Unfortunately we are tied (no pun intended) together because of a
horrible condition. I gave up years ago on doctors helping my daughter.
I had prayed for years, each time we went to a new one, "God give
him/her wisdom to find out what is wrong"...........2 years ago I
realized that we had built a "patient-nut case file" unknowingly. The
more doctors we went to, the bigger her file became and the more the
doctors labeled her a "depressed--hypocondriac". Every doctor would
ignore what we were saying and tell her, "you need an antidepressant".
It got to the point that you want to smack them--we lost it with a
few.....Thank goodness for a doctor in Temple Texas at the "renowned"
Scott & White facility. He looked over the top of his glasses at my
daughter and said, "You need an antidepressant"...this was after
spending less than 5 minutes with her---oh, but he had that "file". When
we left, (2 1/2 hr. drive for that diagnosis), my daughter was so angry
and said, "I give up, no one can help me." A PATIENT cannnot understand
WHY a doctor (especially at THAT facility) won't get down to business
and find out the problem!! That doctor changed my prayer life. From
that day on, I began praying, "God give ME wisdom to find out what is
wrong with her". It was the same year (2001) when I came across the
endometriosis web site. She had had, (repeated) endoscopes, upper/lower
gi's, colonscopies, sonograms, etc....but not one doctor had ever
mentioned a lap!! The last doc thinks all her problems are endo related
and does not believe she has Crohn's. (She has never had granulomas
present in any biopsies. I just know ONE thing. I want my baby girl
well. I want all of you out there well. I told my sister in an email
yesterday that I just believe if I keep "kicking the mountain, at some
point it has to fall over"......I DO believe that. Today I received an
email from a friend I had not heard from in a long time--it was just one
of those "forward" emails...she does not know Melissa has had surgery.
The email was about God telling a man to Push a rock each day outside
his home. The man faithfully did it each day, but the rock never
budged. Satan began taunting the man and told him he'd never move the
rock. The man, discouraged, told the Lord he was weary of it--he hadn't
budged it, Satan was right. God told him, "I never said you would move
it, I just told you to push it with all your might, and you have been
faithful to do just that. Now, I will move the rock".......Isn't that
tremendous?? How great is our God!! I am the energy for my daughter. She
is too worn out to search for an answer. Sick people need cheerleaders.
I hope I can be that to this group and as I kick for her and search for
her, let me assure you, I am kicking and searching for you all also.
There is hope. His name is Jesus. I am not perfect by any means. I
screw up quite often. However, I believe God is the answer and he knows
me inside out (better than I know myself). I believe with all my heart
He will see us through this nightmare that never seems to end. Let's
all push this mountain together.