Tami, don't feel bad, I understand fully. I too cancelled a surgery before,
and I felt much the same way! Sometimes, our bodies do get tired out,and we
don't have the strength in us to endure one more! My fear was that i would
not pull through. As it was I did have surgery two months ago, and that was
the worst of all surgeries, I had one heck of a time coming too, and I was so
weak, and things just were not good. I had a partial lung collapse etc....I
know your fear, just don't allow yourself too feel bad or guilty, when you
are ready, it won't matter, and you will just do it!