What a terrible time you are going through. Sometimes life just plain sucks - there's no sense in trying to sugarcoat it at all. I would like you to know that I am praying for you, that some of this load gets lifted from your shoulders, and that the pain goes away for at least a while.
Rose, you know you've been through tough times before, and you made it through then and you WILL make it through this! I don't know what else to say except that you are a strong, sweet woman, and you've got to stick around so that you can help the rest of us.
The beauty from within you shines through your poetry, and here is my hand to help you if you should need it....
Wishing you pain free moments, hours and days.
-- ClareAt Sat, 28 Sep 2002, rowdyladyrose@aol.com wrote: > >I am so sorry I haven't been here for you all lately. > >I've been having a really rough time lately. Seems like my whole family >is falling apart. My sister's husband has asked for a divorce after 23 >years of marriage as well as her having to have another angioplasty next >week (3rd in a year). My brother has diabetic neuropathy of the feet >(can't feel them at all) and his doctor has messed up HIS disability. My >mother no longer recognizes any of us and her kidneys are failing. My >husband is still dealing with being sued from an accident that happened >over 1 1/2 years ago as well as waiting to hear if the company he works >for is getting sold and if he will still have a job. And of course he >worries about me, which is a full time job. > >I can't keep food down most times, if I do, then it just races out the >other end. Social Security is being their usual 'helpful' selves. NOT. >I either don't sleep at all or sleep too much. I am suicidal and have >to depend on my friend to pay my therapy bills. I probably should be >hospitalized but can't afford it. None of my crafts are selling at the >consignment store. I can't hold down a regular job. > >I am hanging on my fingernails and they are breaking one by one. I >don't mean to bring you all down, but it's just been so horrible. My >friends avoid me. I don't even want my pets around and they don't >understand. I can't write poetry, can't read, all I want to do is cry. > >Please pray for me. > >kcmo rose