Hello everyone Im sorry that this is going to be kinda a grumpy letter
but I am so mad right now. I was supposed to have surgery in the
beginning of Sept to take down my adheasions plus possible a resection
of my bowel and possible take out my ovary and tube. Anyway my gyne
surgeon wants me to see a bowel surgeon before my surgery which I
totally understand. But he said that he hoped that my surgery would be
early Sept. The bowel doctor cant see me till Sept 25th and now my
gynes secretary says that his surgery schedule is booked almost through
sept and into Oct-Nov. I am in terrible pain as you all are
experiencing and I just am starting to feel beaten by this stupid
problem. I feel like just giving in. I know that sounds so lame but
ive been fighting for three years for someone to believe that there was
anything really wrong with me. All tests came back normal. Untill that
is untill they did emergency surgery in May and saw all the adheasions
in my abdomen. And then I called my mom crying about the surgery thing
and all she kept saying is Well thats the way the health care system is
and that I need to be PATIENT. Im sorry but I feel like Ive been
patient for three years and Im good and tired of it. It feels to me
like she is saying that she dosent believe the pain I experience every
day. I am on Percocet and that would be fine to be on that all the time
but Im scared to be on it to much as I have three very young children
that need me during the day so I take it as little as possible. I am
scared for myself and I am scared for my children and husband they have
had to live with this devil woman we like to call me for the past three
years. I hate my life right now. I know I will get the surgery and it
may be a month or two away yet but I just saw an end in sight and now I
see more pain and more waiting. Im sorry this is such a poor me letter
but I am just soooo sad right now.....