Brockenwing, I cried when I read your post announcing your return to your family and to us..... it is time my friend to change your nickname, or step out from behind it if you feel ready and share with us your real name.
I know during our chat in Beach Club Chat last week, you kept expressing how much the chat was helping you....BW as we all fondly dubbed you that night, we will be in the chat room every Wednesday night from 7pm to 10pm your time....don't forget the link from IAS doesn't seem to be working properly so come in through http://www.bombobeach.com OK?
I am sorry you felt so sad and angry, but at the same time BW, many of us, if not most of us KNOW how you feel, I have my days of hot tears on my cheeks, screeching at my husband why me? I am sick of this! It isn't fair (NoT a pretty site! ;-) but it is a normal human reaction to our situation) so don't be too hard on yourself.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful prayer, I love to hear new ones, and found yours very moving.
Your way of describing the comfort you felt with the blessing you received....."like the blanket receiving a new born baby" such beautiful words and such a wonderful way to describe the change that had come over you.... now perhaps instead of Brockenwing you can find a new nickname, perhaps something like Hopefulheart.... BW, we all worried about you and you were the topic of discussion of those of us who chat via msn...we all worried for your safety and your family........I am sooo glad that you are home.....
May you and your family now begin to heal, and understand the pain that each of you feels.....please visit bombobeach with your family BW, go to note pad, and show your husband and sons the section titled "I live with someone who has adhesions" This section is for fathers, mothers, husbands, wives, sons, daughters, friends and anyone else who is special to you..... read the messages left by others, and perhaps your family may be able to express their feelings too. My pain therapist has always encouraged me to write, as she ecourages all her clients. Putting it into words on paper or the computer screen, helps to free the anger, hurt, pain and fear that each of us holds secretly in our hearts.
Love & gentle fluffy cloud hugs..... and prayers of thanks and joy at your safe return to us
-- Love and gentle hugs, Joanne Eslick Founder Australian Adhesions Support Group http://www.bombobeach.com NSW Australian Co-ordinator of International Adhesions Society http://www.adhesions.org
-- I am not a medical person, and all my messages are based on personal experience. I am a fellow adhesions sufferer reaching out to help others.