I understand completely and feel the way you do off and on where I feel I don't know what to do next, where to go, which doctor to see, who to listen to, etc. This is just such a frustrating disease and leads to such frustration that one feels like they can go crazy.
I haven't been on for a while because the kids are home from school and haven't found the time to come on.
I hope in going through my 250 e-mails that you've found the info. about Germany. I wish I could afford to go with you, but there's no way, unless my insurance company paid for some of it.
Love,
Hell-yun