Dear Cathy, Don't even put it out into the air about his birth and your pain
being connected. Start another good story in your head now and stick to it.
Your own fears could cause that which you fear the most to happen. So back
up, please, rehearse a good, true version (truth is in the eye of the beholder
and varies widely) and never think that your son caused your problems. God
only knows why, and someday soon there will be a cure. Maybe it's spray-gel,
just around the corner. Love, Sally Grigg