Re: Completely AWFUL doc visit...I'm in a really dark place right now
From: cynthia (windrunner91@aol.com)
Mon Nov 5 18:50:05 2001
At Mon, 6 Nov 2000, Susan_OR wrote:
>
>Hi Everyone...
>
>I feel so alone and confused and desperate...I don't even know where to
>turn or what to do. I have decided that I am done with my doctor and I
>won't be going back. I don't think I'm going back to my gyn either...so
>now I get to go thru the fun experience of finding new docs. I went
>today and my doc prescribed Neurontin (has anyone tried this and what
>did you think?) and then told me how it would most likely take a long
>time to work, if it helped at all. So, of course, like anyone in pain
>would...I asked her to refill my pain meds while we were waiting for
>this to work. Can you already guess what the answer was? No...that's
>it...just no. I asked her what I was supposed to do then...just suffer?
>And she just looked at me like I had 3 heads. Dammit, I'm not a druggie
>and I'm not crazy....I'm in PAIN! She said I am just too young to be on
>pain meds all the time and that I have already been on them for 6 months
>so she couldn't refill it. Like I want to be on them?!? I'm still in
>pain and if they could offer me any other solution I would gladly stop
>taking the pain meds, but that is the ONLY thing that helps at all. She
>said, "honestly, I don't really think anything is going to significantly
>help you and Dr. Peterson (my gyn) concurs". Ok, so what are they
>doing? Humoring me? What the heck (not my first choice of words I should
>say) are they doing and why am I paying them? I'm done with them. I've
>only got 6 pain pills left so it's going to be getting real tough in the
>next day or so. If I am too young to be on pain meds then I am too
>young to just accept that I will be in this awful pain forever....I
>can't just accept that. I just can't.
>
>I have thought about Scranton, but honestly, I don't know how we'd swing
>the cost. Germany is a thought...but that just scares me to go so far
>away. So, I'm still trying to grasp onto life savers closer to home.
>I've been in contact with a Dr. Jerry Perez down in California in the
>Bay area. I'm hoping he might be able to help. At least with the
>lymphatic cyst, if not the adhesions. For right now, tomorrow...I've
>got to find a doctor who will treat this pain. It is getting to the
>point that I can't stand it one more second....let alone weeks. They
>are going to find me holed up in some dark, dingy hole playing with
>voodoo dolls in little white coats. Wouldn't that be fun?!? LOLLOL I'm
>completely joking, of course! Just had to get that out. I really am
>getting desperate. There just has to be a way to get relief.
>
>I'm praying for everyone who is off on their journey to wellness....
>
>Hugs,
>Susan
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Try the Nuerontin, honestly I felt great after 2 days,
the first day wasnt as painful, second day, I was like my old self.
I have to stay on schedule with it. I have some nueritis and costochronditis,
I am much more active and happier, the pain is basically gone with a few exceptions
every now and then. I was in pain for 2 years before this, and I went through
hell trying to get the correct diagonisis and treatment. Dont give up now, just try
it. Cynthia