Re: An awful tragedy /more confessions

From: Millie (
Fri Aug 10 11:26:15 2001

Dear Sally, Please don't blame yourself for what happened. You are right in saying that she chose her own destiny, and, yes... it is very sad. Sally, you have been through far more than enough with your surgery and with your own pain. It's hard for me to know what to say to help you. Sally, we all love you and care about you - please don't forget that. Love, Millie

>----- Original Message -----
From: "Sally Grigg" <> To: "Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS" <> Sent: Friday, August 10, 2001 4:24 AM Subject: Re: An awful tragedy /more confessions

> I am writing this against my husbands advice, but I find that I cannot
live > with myself, The pills she stole were mine, not the ones I take for pain,
> those were hidden, but other ones (generic) prescribed to me which I
believe > contained a lot of aspirin among other things, anyway they made me
nauseous, > but I didn't throw them away as I should have, I was going to take them to
the > pharmacy and find out what was in them.
> But regardless, if she hadn't known that I was on pain pills she wouldn't
have > taken them. I know she chose her own destiny in the long run, but I'm
bearing > such a weight of guilt. I've sat by elderly people and held their hand and
> read from the bible as they have died. It was peaceful and okay, they had
> lived a long life and were content. She didn't want to die and we spent so
> much energy trying to make her live and she couldn't. We did CPR, directly
> with oxygen into her lungs, (my husband got vomit in his eye), because
vomit > came out of the tube in her lungs from her lungs, we used a defibrillator
to > shock her heart, I called and called to her to come back, but she died
anyway. > I somehow feel like I should go off all narcotics.....If they are such a
draw > to the young for a false high, we have to be aware of this. That's why
mine > were hidden, but it didn't matter in the long run. She took something,
worse, > something that made her throw-up, and the combination of alcohol was just
too > much.
> Sally Grigg wrote:
> > Dear friends and anyone else reading this board, recently, a young, 20
> > year old girl who had just been diagnosed HIV positive stole a few
> > opiate prescription pain pills and died. We believe that she had only
> > taken a couple of pills plus drank a small amount of alcohol. She was
> > not trying to kill herself, but was trying to "escape the reality of her
> > dreaded disease". After her death it was learned that the tests were
> > wrong. She was not HIV positive at all. She had vomited during the
> > night from the pill/alcohol combination and it presumably went into
> > her lungs, killing her.
> >
> > So, please dear friends, never keep your pills where they can be stolen
> > by anyone: your kids, their friends, the neighbors, visitors, out and
> > out crooks, etc. and if you or anyone you know are tested for
> > something like aids, get a confirmation test. My husband is a volunteer
> > fireman and he said it was one of the worst calls he had ever been on.
> > They tried to bring her around. She was so young, pretty and healthy
> > looking, but they couldn't bring back the dead. We pray to God that she
> > is with him and resting peacefully in Heaven.
> >
> > I massaged her hands and feet for an hour calling for her to come back
> > but she couldn't. After they prolaimed her dead I said a prayer service
> > over her from memory. With great sorrow, Sally
> >

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