Karla,
If you don't come back to the "Board" does it mean you
do not forgive me? It would be an awful large weight
to carry knowing I've caused you to feel so badly.
You must understand...I am a naive 32 year old. Not
being able to have children...I've never quite grown
up myself. I react before I think...if only I
understood in that moment...I could take all this
back...you are a wonderful person to say such
beautiful things knowing the kind of pain that you
yourself are in. I feel helpless in that I can not
let you visually see the sadness I feel inside that
you have withdrawn yourself. Your knowledge, and
encouraging words are so desperately needed to all on
the "Board"...not just the "regulars"...but, more so
to those who are unknowing of this disease, new people
who approach this board with all the fears they have,
searching for a response from someone....a glimmer of
hope. A friend they feel they can confide in all
their deepest worries without fear of having judgement
passed upon them. They're are many people who are
reaching out and ever so lonely and in need of a
compassionate individual...so, I humbly ask you to
please allow me an opportunity to be a part of your
life in any small way I can. Please don't let this
misunderstanding cause so many others to lose out on
your valuable qualities that you have to offer. I am
but a small speck on the face of this earth...so, if
not for me...how about for all the others? At a loss
for words, Marianne Bolding
P.S. I send this to the "Board", also...so, you can
see, in all my shame, my humble efforts and true
ambarrassment for my reactions towards you.
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