Browkenwing wrote:
> I am having surgery on July 17,2001 and I am scared to death. The fear
> really takes over sometimes.I have had 4 other surgeries in the last 6
> years but the last one I had in august of "99" has really changed my
> entire life. My bowels have not worked right since nothing moves
> through me from the minute I put it in my mouth. I have been surviving
> on Ensure and jello lots of fruit,V8 juices,and 1 gallon of water a day.
> I have lost around 120 lbs and I have also shrunk 1 inch in height. They
> have tried every Laxative under the sun and it hurts terribly when my
> bowels move, and they usually don't work anyway.I can't digest anything
> not even crackers or pretzels.I have had every possible test and
> everything comes out normal. I have been to many different Dr.s and
> have really started to lose all hope.I could not understand why none of
> them would help me until I went and got my OR reports and there it was
> in black and white ADHESIONS. So I went to another Dr. with my Or
> records, he is supposed to be the best around here He is going to do an
> exploratory laparotomy and he said he would check me from my stomach
> down.I do not want to be cut on again but I can't keep living this way
> anymore!I can't do anything anymore I can't walk it feels like something
> is pulling on my left side,I can't play with my kids, and I can't even
> be intimate with my husband. My whole life is consumed by this horrible
> disease. Sometimes I feel like I just exist. I am sorry I did not mean
> to write a story here I just really could use some prayers to keep me
> going!! Thank You so much for listning.
>
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> Big Pain Free Hugs To All
> ~Browkenwing~
>