I am one week post op & I know exactly what you are going through. The last two weeks before surgery for me were the worst, & I came close to cancelling several times. I even had the fear that they would find nothing worth fixing.
I also had a new gyno & didn't have a strong relationship with because of the time frame. I had my hystorectomy last year (with a different Gyno) thinking that it would take away all my pain, this of-course didn't happen. To make matters worse I required further surgery 5 days later.
So Karen, Monday week ago, I had a 4 hour surgery where all my adhesions were divided & cleaned up & my ovaries removed. They were attached to my vagina, bladder and abdominal wall. The ovaries full of endometriosis and needed to come out.
Karen, up until I was put to sleep I was nervous, but I had talked to my doctors about my fears and had also told the theatre sister, with their help I was able to calm down before I went to sleep. Apart from post-op pain, I am feeling pretty good! Ring your doctor & tell him about your concerns, talking to him will help calm your nerves. I wrote it down for my Gyno, and it helped enormously.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers Karen, this is the right thing to do......I can say it, because I am now on the other side of that journey.
Hugs & Cheers,
Jo
At Wed, 18 Apr 2001, karen wrote:
>
>Hello all,
>
>Well just as the title says my surgery is April 26, 7 days away, and I
>am getting to be a real nervous wreck about it. It has been scheduled
>for almost 8 weeks. You would think that I would be ready to get it
>over with by now.
>
>I have consented for a laparoscopy, possible oopherectomy, possible
>laparotomy, possible hysterectomy, plus the surgeon will be in with my
>gyn in case he needs to repair a hernia (which I doubt very much). Last
>year during an exploratory lap they found endo, and my left ovary
>adhered to my bowel. Supposedly they excised the endo and freed the
>ovary. Still had pain even with Lupron shots. It's been the same pain
>for 1 1/2 years. I consented for all of these things because I DO NOT
>want multiple surgeries over the years. I have two beautiful girls and
>I am 33 years old. I am not going to have more children, so if the endo
>and adhesions are interfering with these organs, I have no problem
>giving them up.
>
>The problem I am having is I do not know what I will wake up with or
>without. And God forbid I wake up and they tell me they found nothing.
>I will really be upset because something has to be causing this pain.
>
>This is also a new gyn and I don't have much of a relationship with him
>since I only saw him three times (of course that was in a matter of 2
>weeks).
>
>I guess I am just feeling the presurgery jitters. I want this to be
>over and be recovering so that I can do things again. I know this is
>not 100%, but I am trying to be optimistic.
>
>I am not near as bad off as some of you, for that I am thankful, and I
>feel for you. Does everyone get these jitters? Last year I was fine,
>not a bit nervous. I am even dreaming about this.
>
>Well, sorry to ramble. Needed to vent. Would appreciate any words of
>encouragement you can muster up! My husband is very supportive, but I
>can tell he is worried as well. I don't want to worry him more with my
>paranoia. Thanks for listening.......
>
>--
>Karen
>
-- You will never never know.......if you don't give it a go :)