Have you shared any of these poems with your doctors? I think they hit the nail on the head and they really can do the talking for you.
the sun creeps up, another day dawns bright with promise but in my room where i lay that promise has been broken
the light that i yearn for is in my spirit, deep inside but the pain shuts the door and my mind stays in shadows
not absolute, this dark side, light seeps in, shining briefly in this place where i cried, family, friends, flowers
i grasp these hopes to me the only things that matter that i take the time to see love for eternity is stronger than pain
kcmo rose