Regina,
I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time. You have to remember
that you are NOT alone. We all can and do feel your pain. It sounds like
you are at the end of your rope. I think I know where you stand on the
subject, but it might be time to put your personal feelings aside and
reconsider the doctors in PA. Just think about this for a minute. You have
to consider how not only you but your child, husband, career, LIFE, could
benefit from surgery with them. You read Karen's tragically painful story
and how bad her insides were (no offense Karen-you are a success story!).
Now she has her life back, her husband has his wife back, but most
importantly in my book, her kids have their mom back. However you found
this website, it was meant to be. Something lead you here even if you
stumbled on it by accident. Try to use the information you have received and
the stories we have all shared to your advantage. If I was in the exact
same situation as you are now, NOTHING would stop me from calling the PA
docs. I KNOW that someday I too will have to go see them. I am holding off
as long as I can. I am the only one who knows how much pain I can
tolerate. Only I can make the decision when it's time to go. When you
reach that point of no return, then you too will make whatever decision you
feel is necessary. Life is too short Regina and our kids grow up too fast.
None of us want our kids to have childhood memories of us being in pain all
of the time. As far as the money up front goes, I have no idea how I will
come up with that kind of money either but by God I will get it somehow.
It's less than the price of a car. We take loans out for cars, home
improvements, vacations, college, weddings...you get the picture. My mother
has taught my sisters and me "Where there's a will, there's a way" and I
have always applied it to anything I want bad enough. Anything worth having
is worth making sacrifices for. Please don't think I am being hateful. If
I didn't care about you and everyone else on the board, I would have kept my
mouth shut. I think sometimes we want answers (I have the world's worst
when it comes to this) but we don't like to hear what we need to hear.
Sometimes because I am soooo stubborn I need a swift kick to make me see the
light! Just ask my husband! Consider this a very gentle nudge honey. I
hate to see someone I care about in pain. Please just think about it. We
are all here to support eachother. We might not always agree but that's
what makes us special and unique!
If I can do anything to help, please let me know. Everything will be ok!
Big Pain Free Hugs To You Regina!!!!
Love Lisa :0)