charlene wrote:
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>> ----- Original Message -----
> From: Eileen Rivera
> To: adhesions@adhesions.orgSent: Tuesday, March 27, 2001 10:05
> AMSubject: Re: I cant carry on like this anymore!!!!
> Dear Jackie B, Hi...I'm also with a lot of pain after my surgery
> almost 8 weeks ago and my adhesions are back ! I thought yesterday I
> wasn't going to make it because of my desperation. It even came to my
> mind taking my car and driving 120 mph and hitting a wall ! ........I
> tried placing ice bags on my abdominal area, heating
> pads...everything. It hurts so much that I couldn't hardly walk nor
> move. Even when I'm sleeping (if I manage to sleep a little) if I move
> the pain strikes me. I know what you are going through, try to go to a
> doctor ASAP, I know where you live there is more hope and medication
> than were I live. God bless and hope you can find a doctor to help you
> soon. Keep in touch. EileenPuerto Rico
>
>> ----- Original Message -----
> From: jackie burgess
> To: Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS
> Sent: Tuesday, March 27, 2001 7:34 AM
> Subject: I cant carry on like this anymore!!!!
> Hi everybody, I feel i cant carry on like this anymore, i'm
> constantly in bed for 20hrs or more per day, can only manage
> to eat sandwiches anything bigger comes back up.I even
> phoned my priest this morning, so he came round to visit me
> and i told him how i felt.(If i go to sleep and not wake up
> then, i'll no longer be in agony). Dont think i am suicidal,
> as i'm not, I would NOT contemplate that.I just want some
> kind of relief from this nightmare situation. I havent been
> out of the house for ten days, except for an emergency visit
> to gp, (BUT) I'm really SCARED of going back into hospital,
> because of the accident that left me like this. If I go to
> hospital, then i have to go back to the same one, the
> thought petrifies me, even now i still have nightmares and
> flashbacks. As you all know the only way they can diagnose
> adhesions properly is by 'keyhole' laparascopic surgery.It
> was this procedure that led to my bowel being punctured so I
> had to have a colostomy done, and, they punctured my
> bladder, ended up with suprapubic catheter(a tube that goes
> through abdomen to bladder and drains in to a leg bag, and a
> vaginal catheter,as suprapubic catheter couldn't cope on its
> own..As you can tell i'm really depressed and dont know how
> much more pain and vomiting i can cope with, and the weight
> loss. I hope u can try to understand the way i'm feeling,
> and why I am so SCARED of going back to the
> hospital. Perhaps some of u have felt like this before? Is
> there not more to life than living with ARD? RegardsJackie
> B England(stickybits)
>