kcmo rose:
If there is a reason for this pain, suffering, indignation and humiliation,
I've yet to become aware of it. But then, I never knew the reason I got
cancer 4 times. I guess as time goes on we learn the reasons. Maybe it is
to support others, maybe to become a teacher to those less aware, maybe it is
to teach us patience, but whatever the reason I am sure that it is a good one.
I have many many days that suicide comes to mind, but never once would I act
it out because I lost my mother to suicide and I know what an empty hole it
leaves in those left behind. But to say that it doesn't cross my mind would
be a lie.
I only pray that somewhere somehow there is a doctor who is going to take
care of me and get me out of pain and then maybe I can do whatever it is God
has planned for me.
Thank you for your words of encouragement. They did help.
**HUGS**
Missy