I think you are taking Dr. Redan's protection and care of your body's healing process as rejection rather than care. He has agreed to see you again, once you have recovered from you recent major surgery.
We are all here to help you through, thank God you are not alone!
We have choices in life...to be a victim, or a champion. I hope you will draw on your inner strength and begin to have peace.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.