"Brokenwing"your ordeal is similar to A LOT of us, believe me! If you would like to take part in the forum, as in getting responses to you directly leave your email address on your responses. If you are a little weary of doing that I was too in the beginning, but I haven't had any problems. Sometimes late at night when I'm in pain I get on the site and just read new and old posting just to remember I am not alone and IT HELPS or if I feel like "venting", or heard about something new, or needed a questions answered I feel good knowing "someone" is available.
Good luck with everything
ann-georgia