At Thu, 4 Jan 2001, Liz wrote:
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>Hi every-one
>Hopefully you all have survived the holidays? I went to a surgeon today
>a new one, they had sent me to a kedney specialist yesterday due to
>blood in the urine, that is always present when they test me, he wanted
>me to go in the hospital for the test that they do with the camera, well
>had this test 10 years ago and nothing showed, so I told him that I want
>to go see a surgeon about the ashesions because I cant take it anymore,
>amazingly i got an appiontment today, well I was told you know that they
>will come back so why go thru it, you cant be lying around because of
>the pain you have to get up, and of course I have to go see the bowel
>specialist, have a ultra sound, lower GI, back to the kidney specialist,
>then he will tell me what he thinks. Of coursed I had to hear about the
>complications and he looked at me like I was a little looney. I felt
>like a drug addict begging for heroin. You know the pain that we do
>experience from the surgery, and the risks that we take by having it,
>don't they realize that we wouldn't even consider it, if we weren't in
>extreme pain. I have been up since 2a.m. this morning sitting in a
>chair with pain, I am 46yrs. old and I am living like a 90 yr.old
>woman( I am sure some act younger than me lol). I can't live like this
>anymore, there is no quality of life living like this. Of course I
>cried while trying to explain how I feel, but they just tilt their head
>and kind of look at you strange, today once again I feel defeated, as I
>am filling my calendar with all the appointments they want me to make,
>the feeling of defeat is rising, none of us asked for the way we are
>having to live our life, we cant get out of our bodies for a few hours
>to recoupe from the pain, we cant get away from it, nor the pain of
>trying to get some-one to help you! Thank-God once again for all of you.
>
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>Hi
>I to have alway's had it on my left side, I figured if I could just remove the left side of me I would be fine, why I feel it more on one side verses the other, but think of it in a positive way, it could be are left and right that we feel it, (lol), I know this is not funny but we have to try to find some humor in all this or we will be just miserable, thank- god for this sight and all the wonderfull people that are here, God bless.
> The Adhesion Warrior
>