Hello, My name is Maryann I read the number 2 topic. I have been
suffering from something for 5 years now. I have been in severe,severe
pain. It is unknown to this day what it is. The pain has litterally
taken a major toll on my life and my families lives. I have been very
depressed for a long time due to this horrible,horendous,pain. I am
completely aware of the fact that it is not life threating due to the
fact nothing shows up and it has been 5 years. I would have been gone a
long time ago if it was.I feel I am at a major loss in my life because
of this wrenching pain. I am 27 years old and have 3 small children,
this pain I have has made it extremly difficult to be the mother I want
to be. Five years ago I was put on klonopin.It is a nerve pill. I was
on it for 3 years. I was also on an anti-depressent. For about a years
time I felt good for the most part. I was so scared of the pain coming
back that during that years time I became pregnant and stayed on the
klonopin.Thank God my daughter is healthy for the most part. It seemed
like after the first year the klonopin started to not do much so I
started to take more and more for my pain,until I took to many and was
taken to the hospital were they told me I could not take it anymore. I
thought at that moment my life was over. They sent me home with 5
morphine patches. In the past 5 years I have not been able to take any
pain killers by mouth because it would set me into a fit of my pain. The
morpine patches made me so sick. I stopped them. I had went to see a
pain managment specialist and to no avail he seemed to be the judge of
my pain and said I do not need anything but and anti-deppresant in which
at this time I was already on one.Not even 2 days after I stopped my
klonopin I suffered very bad withdrawals. I had become addicted. I
knew at that moment I could never take another nerve pill in my life and
I would have to live in this hellish pain forever. I went 6 months with
nothing, I even had surgery and nothing for my pain afterwards. After 6
months the pain was the same but I grew extremly tired of dealing with
it. I took it upon myself to have my doctor prescribe me a different
kind of nerve pill. Ativan. Lets just say I am too addicted to
continue on them. I have had nothing but a hard time with them. I have
not had one in over a weeks time and for me that is great. My
withdrawals this time are not so bad. I suppose at what I am getting at
is do you know if there is any help. I am trying herbs and supplements.
So far little relief. I know I am an addict to these mind altering
drugs. It happend because of my pain. I have never stole from anyone,
or have never been arrested for anything. I am trying to get it into my
head that it is not my fault. If I am one of those people that needs
medication for relief so I can try to live a productive life, how and in
what way can it be done so I don't become too addicted to something
else. I would greatly appreciate any reply to this terribly long
letter.
Thank You
Maryann t Wed, 08 Nov 2000, car45@impop.bellatlantic.net wrote:
> >1.) American Society for Pain Relief, Research and Education Net ( >ASPRREN )...CENTERS >OF EXCELLENCE FOR PAIN MANAGEMENT > >http://pains.net/ASPRREN.htm > >~ ~ ~ ~ > >2.) The A.S.A.P Panic Page! For Intractable Pain Patients...For Pain >Patients who know you >need opiod or "narcotic" pain medication to control your suffering, and >things to do to get it. It's >the " ASAP Pain Course " for YOU. > >http://www.widomaker.com/~skipb/panic.html > >~ ~ ~ ~ > >3.) National Institute on Drug Abuse on Addiction versus Dependence" > >http://www.widomaker.com/~skipb/Scheme.html > >~ ~ ~ ~ > >4.) American Society for Action on Pain ( ASAP )...Be sure to read this >entire article as well as >all of the links, which are listed throughout this article. > >http://www.widomaker.com/~skipb/skiphome.htm.html