Bev has been wonderful in trying to keep me hopeful, but I know that she struggles to do it. It is hard to be positive when there is so little to be positive about. At this point all I want is to be able to make it to my daughter's wedding so I can know that she and my granddaughters will be taken care of. Then I pray that the good Lord takes control of the situation and either finds a solution or ends my suffering.
I am going to stay at my daughter's for awhile....that can be trying at times....but it keeps me distracted and allows me to spend time with those beautiful little babies.
I thank you all for the support and encouragement you have given. I pray that you receive the help that you all need and that the Lord puts you in the safe hands of a good doctor to end your suffering.
Love to everyone,